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Is anyone surprised at this result? No, I didn't think so.

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Teastaioinn cineal uaim
Teastaioinn cineal uaim - 'I want sex.'Horny little bugger, aren't you? You enjoy porn and being naked. Hell, you're probably naked right now. Both hands on the keyboard, you pervert!

seven days

Freedom of speech

jewels of Lock and Ki has an excellent post on freedom of speech, especially in regards to adult content on the internet.

I reccomend that you read it if you like reading the same things I do. I'll write more when I get the chance.

Quiz Results

You need a spanking and you know it. There's a
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what are you waiting for?


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Two Weeks

Two weeks from today I will no longer be living here. My address will change. I'll have a new phone number. A new home. A new workplace. (if I get my transfer, crosses fingers)

I'm excited. I'm also nervous as hell. But I guess that's to be expected.

I'll miss so much about this life . . . but the future looks more promising than it has in a long time. Change is something I've needed, needed for a while. Felt stuck, felt like I didn't have any choices. Now I can see a bright future, happy future, full and with life.

So while I am experiencing a lot of sadness, it is more than balanced with what I am gaining in joy and happiness.

The Brush

Many years ago I bought a brush. What attracted me to it was it's beautiful rounded edges, smooth wood, rectangular shape. A paddle brush is what they're called. How appropriate.

I'd never really been spanked, certainly not with a brush, but something about it appealed to me. So I took it home with me. For a while it just sat in a drawer, waiting.

It came out once or twice when I got up the courage to ask someone to use it on me. But it always was forgotten after a while.

Well this last Friday I took it with me on my visit to my boyfriend's house. I showed it to him. He liked it.

Saturday night. After we got home from the reception we relaxed for a while, got out of our formal clothes. But pretty soon he had me go get it and come back to the couch. He told me what he was going to do to me with it, how warm he was going to make me.

I positioned myself over his lap. He ran his hand over my ass. I love how his hands feel, so warm and big and heavy. And warm me up he did, first with his hand and then . . . with the brush, the paddle brush, and paddle it did! It stung. It stung so much but it was so so good. He loves it when I squirm and struggle, but I never tried to put my hands back to stop it.

He also loves how wet it makes me. After he was done with it he put his fingers to my wetness and made me come, maybe more than once. Then he gave me a choice, more with the brush or with his hand. I chose his hand.

But I love that brush. It will see much more use, I'm sure. And so is he.

I'm still alive

Sorry I haven't posted in a long while, almost two weeks I guess. I've been a bit busy. Yeah. I'm still working almost full-time and trying to get my stuff sorted and packed for moving. I took one car-load up on Friday. Went to a very nice wedding on Saturday. Hi Pinky and the Brain! The reception was really fun.

But I think it's all getting to me. I have whatever cold that's been going around and everyone seems to have. I'm just so tired and irritable. And everything just made me want to cry today, from songs on the radio to frustrating customers.

Anyway, thanks to everyone who's offered help, or given me a shoulder to cry on, and just to everyone who has left a kind comment or been there for me. I really and truly appreciate it.

Q&A Meme

Some Q&A from jewels' blog . . .

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Woodrow Wilson, Stan Lee, Rod Serling, Denzel Washington & Linus Torvalds

2. Where was your first kiss?
I don't remember. I was 14.

3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
No, but my brother and I toilet papered a neighbors house in revenge once.

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
Yes.

5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people?
Yes, I was in several choirs in elementary and middle school, but discovered that I really can't sing in junior high, but people had been too kind to tell me.

6. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
Their smile, general facial expressions, voice.

7. What really turns you on? In another person?
Voice, confidence, touch, kissing, eyes.

8. What do you order at Starbucks?
Iced mocha.

9. What is your biggest mistake?
Under-valuing myself.

10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Yes. (Now ask me if I liked it.)

11. Say something totally random about yourself.
I like odd numbers.

12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
No, thank goodness.

13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Does South Park count? But I love animation, like Dexter's Laboratory or animated movies like Toy Story or Madagascar.

14. Did you have braces?
Never.

15. Are you comfortable with your height?
Yes.

16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the preferred sex has done for you?


17. When do you know it's love?
The trouble comes when trying to decide if it isn't love.

18. Do you speak any other languages?
Very poor German, ein bischen. Das ist gut. Ein, zwei, drei.

19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
No.

20. What magazines do you read?
National Geographic, Consumer Reports, Scientific American.

21. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
No.

22. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?
Yes, but not while I was with them.

23. Do you watch mtv?
Not really anymore, I prefer VH1 when I have time.

24. What's something that really annoys you?
Being late.

25. What's something you really like?
Forests, beaches, campfires, ice cream, a good kiss, watching the night sky.

26. Do you like Michael Jackson?
No.

27. Can you dance?
No.

28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
Twenty-four hours, maybe, when I was a teenager.

29. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
No.

30. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
Yes I do!

Coincidence or prediction?

First off, I'm not sure how much I believe in things like scrying, tarot, or palm reading. Yes, I'm Pagan, but that doesn't mean I automatically believe that stuff. I have a healthy skepticism.

Clear back in February my partner K and I were at a Valentine's Day party at the club. An acquaintance there noticed my pentacle necklace and we talked for a while, turns out he was Alexandrian. (If you aren't familiar with that, look at it like one of the branches of paganism, like if you were Methodist or Baptist or something, you're still Christian.)

Anyway. He did an impromptu palm reading. Told me a lot of things about myself that were true. Then he made the startling statement that my current relationship would only last another eight months. February to October. Eight months. All along I said I didn't believe it, it was impossible, but here I am planning to move out at the end of the month.

So you tell me, am I helping a prediction fulfill itself, or is it just a coincidence?

Things I've been told today

• You need to do what makes you happy.
• You need to do whatever is best for you.
• You are using this to escape from life.
• Falling in love is a choice.
• You are running away.
• That it's not possible to fall in love as quickly as I have.
• That at most it is intense attraction coupled with a really deep crush.

Sometimes the appropriate response to reality is to go insane.

Philip K. Dick, Valis
US science fiction author (1928 - 1982)